I feel lost and helpless?

The best way to deal with that is just to talk. :) I know it'd be weird to talk to a stranger. But won't it be better to talk to someone who knows nothing about your past and anything? Try to put your thoughts into words. So if you feel like a good rant or ramble about silly and random things, feel free to message me. You don't have to talk about anything too deep or weird if you want to, you can just make up things as you go as long as you put those thoughts into words. You can even go "Rainbows are pretty." on me and I won't mind. :) And honestly, I've always found it awkward to talk to "professional help" (although talking to a compete stranger may seem weird too but honestly, I find myself very trustworthy thank you very much. :P) And besides, you're not the only one. :D